fez_reincarnate

So.... hello again.

2009-02-26T13:28:55Z

Well, hello friends.

Long time since I've posted. A really long time.
I sort of decided to stop using LJ as it became just a reason to rant and rave, instead of me posting the good things in life.

So I've come here to rectify some of that. :)

Things are going really well right now - and yes, I'm happy! My gorgeous daughter has grown so damn much. She's running around, throwing tantrums, starting to talk bits and pieces (well, she can copy your words but not properly hehe, her version of "dance" is "daaa" - and she does a little jig) XD
The tantrums can be a bit of a pain but it's still really cute lolz. :)

Krisi is really beautiful and lovely :) We've started going to the gym several times a week, which is really relaxing and nice actually. We went in the sauna and for a swim after a workout... felt really nice. ^_^ Plus I couldn't stop eyeing Krisi up in her swimware *wink wink*

I've decided to stop playing Lord of the Rings Online so much as it's really not doing me any good. It's become a chore to actually leave the house, when I used to love it. It's still going to be a bit hard going out, as I work 8am to 4:30pm and when I get home to a baby it's easier just to stay home lol. But I do want to try and make more effort... I don't get to see my friends at all, and it HAS to change :)

Adam Patel... this is your life!!

2008-07-08T00:09:28Z

You will have to excuse the sarcastic fascade, which will become apparent is just a mask for my discontent. You see, in order to discribe my life I would have to take you back many years, but what is the real point of it? To be honest, there is no point, but I shall browse over my life in a few paragraphs, as I have come to the end of my tether.

I can describe how every few years I moved school just when I got settled, I could say how my dad left when I was six and happy, and when I was seven I was thrown into a new house with a new "dad", and left all my friends behind.
I could even describe how I had 4 best friends by the end of Year 6. One of those friends stopped talking to be randomly, one moved away because his dad was found guilty for having pedophilic pictures on his computer, and the other two were asian kids who I got along with until Year 6, where they worked together to turn both of them against me, and both of them ended up smacking me in the face and beating me up for no reason. I suspect they were racists and didn't like the fact I had an asian last name, and I was white. It's a cruel world for a simple kid, and I didn't understand back then.

So here I was, I moved to the other side of the city and went to a school none of my friends went to as it was so far away. I had no friends, lived in a house with a stranger, and had a warped opinion of what friends are. Oh, and to top it all off, all the other kids started the year before, so all knew each other... I was the new kid in my class that year. Needless to say I spent my entire secondary school (Year 7 to Year 11) with only saying approximately 5 words a day to other students.

Things didn't improve for me until the end of Year 11, where I found a girl I liked. Of course, typical being the word here, it was an online romance. I found a rock chick from the States, who tought me a lot about life, and how to live it. I suddenly found all sorts of things I was good at, and things I actually enjoyed. I liked music, I like going out, I liked drinking, I actually thought about fashion and understood what it was. All these things that people learn during secondary school (high school to all the americans) suddenly rushed into my life - and I loved it!
I returned to Sixth Form after Year 11 and suddenly I had friends again... and upon leaving Sixth Form after a few months, I set off working and seeing this girl in America every few months. We actually considered marriage and I talked to my college about her moving over to England and starting a course. That relationship lasted for 2 and a bit years, and I would lie if I regretted it. It taught me a collosal amount of things. It ended eventually because the trust of being so far away from each other just wasn't there, so I ended it as the arguements and jealousy got too much.

At the end of that relationship, we get a lot nearer to current day. I was in college at the time that relationship ended, and guess what? I was single and apparently desirable. I threw party after party and had 40+ people turn up. I went to the shopping centre and had people yelling my name and running over to pounce and hug me. I had several girls liking me. I was a party animal and everyone loved it. I spent a whole summer going out every single night, I'd spend a week away from home showering and sleeping and boozing at other people's houses. I had about 6 best friends at once and we were at each other's sides the entire summer, it was mad and unforgettable.
However, one thing always nagged me. If I wanted to get a girl, I could have... but I wanted a proper girl, one I could spend all my time with. I had two girls I dated and neither worked out, until I found Krisi.

I was interested in Krisi for a while, and when finding out she was single and available... well, her beauty just dragged me in. I began talking to her and we met up, and we got very close very quickly. Perhaps too quickly, and once again I learned a valuable lesson about life from my second serious relationship - never, not even once, risk not using protection.

Things with Krisi were great. Well, for about a couple months... then it started getting a bit difficult. You see, I am very sex-oriented in my relationships. I will not lie - I get horny often and want to let it out almost everyday. However, Krisi has always been a bit strange. We'd have a period of a few days with lots of sex, then go 2 months of having none, nothing whatsoever, not even just a little grab, no playing around or fooling about. She is also so nervous about herself that she wont show me any part of her body nor let me touch her anywhere unless for about 2 seconds during sex. I have to admit, since about 2 months into our relationship until now we've had countless of arguements about it...
I say arguements, but it's more a case of me getting annoyed, her crying and saying it'll get better... and then it doesn't get better. I find it really hard in this situation. Without that extra special love, without making love and enjoying each other's bodies, I cannot be romantic and loving, I tend to just get frustrated and annoyed. Infact, sometimes I just get so damned upset and angry, I just can't stand it anymore.

And so we are basically at present day... I have a 10 month old daughter who sleeps in our bedroom, I work in a paper recycling plant where I have no prospects and I hate every single day I go to work, and I have no sex-life, no romance, and basically no girlfriend. We're just best friends who hang out every evening. I never see my friends, I never go to parties, I hardly drink, hardly listen to music, and I can't be fucked to dress up or look good.

Tonight I gave Krisi hints of wanting to fool around, and once again they go with her dry-humping me for about 5 seconds, then gently laughing and rolling onto her side and just laying there trying to go to sleep. My daughter was waking up and refusing to go to sleep again, and I have to say... with my current life dragging me to the edge, I quickly got annoyed. I ended up kicking her bed, breaking a slat on it, and she's asleep in our bed now. I am a bad father, and I have basically given up on having a relationship with Krisi, or one that I've been trying desperately for.

Shall we get to the real point of this incredibly long post? Well, life just isn't what I imagined it'd be. I have found myself within the last few weeks just wondering whether people would miss me being gone. I wonder how people would react if I was to be smited in one foul swoop. I even sometimes hope a car will swerve towards me as I'm driving along at 70 mph. I hate where I'm living as Krisi's dad seems to do nothing but complain about us being here. I hate my job. I don't even have Krisi to cheer me up as half the time I'm annoyed that we can't get closer together. My daughter is gorgeous but once again... my life is becoming so tragic to the point I just give up hope of everything in my life. I am a waste of the breaths I draw, and a waste of the water I drink.

I wish there was more in store for me, but I have a feeling I've discovered the only bits of happiness, and it's all down hill from here.

fez_reincarnate @ 2007-09-06T07:27:00

2007-09-06T06:29:43Z

I am now a daddy to a 7lb 13oz baby girl, called Lorelai. :) She's absolutely gorgeous...

It's funny... A lot of new born babies you just look at and they look so friggin' odd, wrinkly, and definately not cute and beautiful... but Lorelai is just... perfect. She is actually so beautiful.

The feelings I felt holding her, and seeing her mother hold her... were just so incredible, and things I've never felt before.

I love the both of them, with all my heart.

I feel so sorry for Krisi. She's been in labour since Sunday morning at 3am. It's been so painful, and she just didn't have the energy left when it came to pushing the baby out... so she had to go into the surgery theatre, and have a small procedure to help pull the baby out as she pushed... it was the most worried I've ever been about someone, because I couldn't see her for over an hour, and nobody was with her to hold her hand and calm her down... but her mother was allowed in 5 minutes before the baby was born, and then I got the fantastic news. ^_^!

As of September the 5th, 2007, at 6:39pm, I am a father to Lorelai Roberts. ^_^

Lorelai and her grandma.

fez_reincarnate @ 2007-09-02T07:17:00

2007-09-02T06:17:38Z

I do believe... Krisi is getting contractions. I may very well be a daddy by the end of today. :)

fez_reincarnate @ 2007-07-12T10:12:00

2007-07-12T09:17:04Z

Wahey, things are definately looking up at work. :D Been sort of hating what I'm doing at the moment. Mostly only because the guy I work with (who is Krisi's cousin, as a matter of fact..) does no work half the time, and leaves me doing all the hard, dirty and physically challenging work! He's been better since I told my boss about it (My boss being Krisi's dad, as a matter of fact.. =P).

However, in a few weeks Krisi's dad is opening up a new position in the office, so I shall be sitting behind a desk on a brand new laptop, as he is giving me the job. ^_^ Not sure if there's going to be a pay change, but I hope so.. but I really don't mind all that much at the moment. XD I just want money rolling in and to get experience in IT, because lack of experience is the only reason I was turned down on my last interview! XD

Woohoo. Things are good and jolly in the World of Fez. =P

p.s. I can't wait to be a parent. ^_^ Only about 6 weeks left now. :o!

fez_reincarnate @ 2007-06-26T13:31:00

2007-06-26T12:35:07Z

Haha. Well, I was just randomly thinking about halloween, when me, Sean and Mark got all juggaloed up. That was like, the best night in a long time. XD I loved that night. It makes me smile thinking about it. XD

Work is boring, but going okay. Dont know if there's going to be an I.T. job opening up soon or not. Good money though. Going to have to spend it all! Lol.
I'm starting to get rich... can't have that now, can we? =P

Life is going well. It's going good actually. :) Nothing to complain about at all, except I constantly feel a little bit stressed, but that's just minor. XD Me and Krisi are going well, and excited for the littlun.

It's her birthday next wednesday, and I have a few things planned for her. :) I have money, afterall. =P

Got my driving TEST in 2 days. Nervous as fuck... shall have to let you know how it goes. I am quietly confident I'll pass first time. Just worried about making ONE mistake and failing, but my driving is good generally so... we'll see how it goes! :)

fez_reincarnate @ 2007-04-26T20:18:00

2007-04-26T19:23:22Z

Well well well... let's update now, lol.

Been doing not much really, except playing lots of Lord of the Rings Online: Shadows of Angmar! Me, Krisi, her brother, her dad, and her brother's girlfriend are all playing it in the same household, haha.
It's most excellent, lots of fun. It's down right now though. :( We're all sitting around waiting for it, rofl. I'm level 26 out of 50, Krisi is level 22, with a couple of level 15-ish characters, her brother is level 24 and her dad is level 20 (as of today). XD Fun stuff!
Also a game I used to play years ago should be starting up again soon, shall be fun playing that. Was called Sharune, if you want to check it out. www.aeonfalls.com

My parents came over to Krisi's (that's where I live now) to meet her parents for the first time. It was me, Krisi, her parents, her brother and his girlfriend, my parents and my sister and her fiancée. It was great, lots of giggles and all went off really well. :)

My sister's getting married next month, I have a proper suit that costs a fortune haha. Expect pictures after the wedding.

Heroes is back on today!! But we haven't finished downloading it, gah. I missed that TV show so much! It's fantastic, who else is watching it? We're also watching Lost, it's been up and down with that show... currently up again, after getting really boring. XD I really only watch it out of curiousity, haha. Last show was good though. i can't wait to watch Heroes though!! Hiro is the most amazing character haha. This is him...
">_<"

Rofl. XD

Last friday night was fun. I had 3 cans of Scrumpy Jack (an amazing english cider), then 2 cans of K (another cider) and then another 4 to 6 cans of Scrumpy Jack... boy was I fucked off my face, haha. I ended up puking at god-knows what time, trying to clean it up, walking into my bedroom naked after coming out of the bathroom (so I must've stripped off and walked out the bathroom >_<) and then I remember puking up in a bucket at some point again. Haha. Oh dear.
Krisi's brother, Mouse, also drank like I did. Apparently he woke his girlfriend up in the night because he... couldn't find the door in his bedroom, rofl. He kept getting up, looking around for it, and then sitting on the bed again. She had to get up and show him where it was, rofl. XD He almost wet himself trying to get out. Bless him.

P.S. I start working again on Monday. I'm such a bone-idle bastard! Haha. I'd rather sit at home all day playing games than go to work and earn money. But I finally got the oommphf to call my Agency, so now I'm going to be earning my keep... meaning I can buy lots and lots of drink. XD

fez_reincarnate @ 2007-04-12T06:50:00

2007-04-12T05:53:27Z

Me and Krisi went for our 20-week scan. The midwife said she's fairly certain it's a girl, because she "saw no willy". Haha.

I actually wanted a girl, too.

I have a driving lesson again today, my instructor said I should be passed soon - if I book my test right away. But, gosh darn it... I'm such a procrastinator and I haven't booked it, nor done my theory yet.

France was amazing. :) And I am very in love with Krisi.

Friends only.

2007-03-05T12:31:47Z

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fez_reincarnate @ 2007-02-26T09:48:00

2007-02-26T09:47:22Z

buONIOABOnbfoasnbfpas. There's just some things I would pay my last penny to buy, haha. And a brand spanking new Final Fantasy game is one of them. And so today I am going to go out and buy it. >_> It looks awesome!! :D

Haha - oh dear.

2007-02-24T22:54:46Z

My friend wants me, him and our other mate to all move to Japan, build our own house, and become a trio of super-fighting ninjas. XD It's fun chatting away to Sean, haha. We're all getting carried away in our imagination about becoming ninjas and speaking Japanese and shizz. XD

Heroes & Lost

2007-02-22T11:44:46Z

Who's watching them? Incase you're completed disjointed from life and the World, they're both a set of TV Series, and both are absolutely fantastic. :)

I love Heroes way more than Lost though. XD Both me and my girlfriend download the episodes on the day they're released on torrents, I am HOOKED. XD

Hammerfall.

2007-02-21T16:56:04Z

So me, Krisi, her brother, her mum and her dad got the train to London (Camden) to see a band at a venue called The Electric Ballroom. It was rather small actually, surprising Hammerfall were playing there.
It was an awesome night. We got kebabs, went to the pub, and then Krisi and her mum went off to see the first support band whilst me and her brother and her dad stayed at the pub drinking. One of the guys behind the bar took my bottle of cider before it was finished so we got a fresh one for free heh heh. XD
And then we walked over quickly to the venue. I say quickly because when you're in Camden Highstreet you just don't walk slowly.

And oh my GOD. I felt so sick when we got there haha. I'd only had 3 and a half pints of cider, so it wasn't the alcohol... it was simply the fact I'd forced them down because I felt so full! But after about 5 minutes that wore off and we found Krisi and her mum. XD

And then the gig was just awesome. :)

And afterwards the guitarist was throwing out picks and I caught one and gave it to Krisi, then I bought her and myself Hammerfall t-shirts. :)

Then we got back and fell fast asleep! The End. :D

fez_reincarnate @ 2007-02-19T17:56:00

2007-02-19T18:02:22Z

Got my 4th driving lesson tomorrow, it's going really well. :) My driving instructor has marked me at about 6 out of 9 on everything we've done, and 9 is PERFECT. So I think I'm going to pass in no time. ^_^

Also, later on tomorrow, me and Krisi and her family are going to go and see Hammerfall, so that shall be amazing. :) I am definately excited!

So today, I felt rather emotional - in a happy and good way. I was on the bus and watching some woman get off another bus with a baby in a pram, and when she got off she all smiled at it and bent down to kiss the baby, and it just made me feel really happy. Soon... I shall have my own child in a pram, and I can bend down and kiss it. ^_^

Life is so good. I was thinking back on my life today when my mp3 player ran out of battery on the way home - and particularly about my old relationship with Gina (Devy), and comparing it to now. Everything is so much better now. Very little jealousy, no mistrust, no accusations, no arguements - me and Krisi are our own people, lead our own lives, and yet spend almost all of our time with each other at the same time. It's absolutely fantastic, I love it all. :) I can't actually think of one thing that's worse than what I had before...

I am more than content... I am happy and fulfilled. :)

Update 2 of 2.

2007-02-18T09:08:34Z

^_^

Well, yesterday was a good day. Spent the morning at Krisi's recovering after some cider the night before, where I spent the evening with Krisi and her family watching music videos and drinking. Then later on we went around her cousin's house, to see some more family and her cousin's newborn baby. It's now just 6 weeks old, and so big already! It was 9 pounds 12 when it was born! o_o

It was really cute. Krisi held it for a minute and it started to cry, bless it, lol. She wasn't doing anything wrong though, babies just do that. It did kind of make me think "Oh God, it's going to be so hard when we have a crying baby and nobody else to give it to!" haha, but hey, that's life. I know it's going to be so stressy when our little one arrives, but we're prepared to deal with it.
Krisi's uncle interrogated me for a few minutes haha. He's a funny lad, that one. He was just asking me what sort of plans me and Krisi had for the baby - such as where I'm living, what I'm going to do (work/education/etc.) and just what's generally happening.

Today we're going to my sister's house for sunday roast. Should be alright I suppose. I'm going to ask her what baby things she has. I'm going to make up a list of everything my sister and mum already have, and then I'll know what we're going to need to buy. Time is ticking my friends, and before I know it.. I'm going to be a dad. :o

^_^

14th Feb.

2007-02-15T08:57:29Z

Last night, me and Krisi went to TGI Fridays for a meal out, with just the two of us. Wow, if only we'd taken a lot of pictures. You guys should've seen how hot she looked. It was a fantastic night out. :) I had a lot of fun, and I was so happy to be taking a girl like that out. ^_^

A message from Krisi.

2007-02-12T19:20:55Z

I love Adam.

fez_reincarnate @ 2007-02-11T16:40:00

2007-02-11T16:42:10Z

Krisi's brother's girlfriend bought me and Krisi this huge baby book, where it has hundreds and hundreds of things to fill in, ranging from 'weight at birth' to 'my thoughts of my first christmas' to so many random things, it's really cute. XD

fez_reincarnate @ 2007-02-10T09:00:00

2007-02-10T09:01:43Z

Snow is such a pretty thing.
It did snow quite a bit, and it was rather unexpected...
But what's more beautiful than just snow is...
This awesome lady in the snow. :)

Well, we just decided to take a walk out in the snow because it looked pretty. :) We walked around Krisi's village and then found a woody area to take some pictures in. So here's some of the pics we took.

Big News!

2007-02-07T14:56:58Z

I suppose I could now give an explaination to some of my last posts. The unexpected, rather difficult news is that Krisi is pregnant. We'd thought abot it a lot and decided we want to keep it. I don't regret this decision and I am actually rather excited to be a dad - and proud to be the father of Krisi's child.

If you want to see an image of the first scan, then click here!

Life is good - and I am very happy right now. Me and Krisi are doing fantastic, and although I was worried for a time, we're just perfect right now, and I expect it to last. :)

I hope you are all doing well.
- Adam.

Well... back to college again.

2007-01-09T16:25:45Z

Well now, I am back at college now after a rather good Christmas Break. :)

I hope you all had a good'un!

What to say...
Life is going really well right now. I am very happy with my life as it is... I am exceptionally happy with Krisi. I can honestly say that I love her more than anything or anyone in my life. I am going to spend the rest of my life with her... I am in love with her.

I worry that she doesn't love me as much as she loved her ex boyfriend. It's not really sometihng that she can help if that's the case... she just wont love me as much as him and I wont really be able to change it.

Am going to be going to three or four great gigs in the near future, seeing some amazing bands, including Finntroll, Tarot, Hammerfall, Soil, and Biomechanical (from what I heard I like their stuff). I don't really know the other bands that well...

I suppose that's all left is for me to carry on living life and loving my girlfriend. College is OK, hoping I can do the work. I talked to my teacher today about some things going on (that I can't reveal here) and he said that if I ever have problems then I just need to tell him and he'll talk to the lecturer involved and let them know there may be a good reason why I'm struggling or why I'm having the odd day off.

Krisi, if you do happen to read this: You are the most amazing girl that I have ever had the fortune to meet. Nobody comes even close. I am completely and undyingly in love with you and I need you for the rest of my life. I am happy to be experiencing this with you, and the next few months with you, even though they shall be tough, I shall love every minute of it, for I shall be experiencing it with you. Never worry or be concerned about losing me because take it from me... you have me for the rest of both of our lives. Thank you for being so beautiful and caring and understanding. ♥

fez_reincarnate @ 2006-12-18T09:40:00

2006-12-18T09:42:35Z

Well now...

Life just became a whole lot more complicated. This is perhaps the biggest moment of my entire life and I don't really know what to think or how to handle it. It's not something that was expected. I still have yet to talk to my mum, and see what she thinks. I have a lot of thinking to do over the next few days.

Christmas is on its way and I am excited to have all the family together. With recent events, more glad to have them together than I ever have been.

Dragonforce gig, 2nd December

2006-12-04T09:50:34Z

This was a most excellent night. Had to meet Krisi's ex boyfriend, Sam, which I was a bit concerned about at first, but it was a great time and he's a really nice lad and we got on really well. Felt bad when he kept going quiet because he was a bit upset I think... I think he regrets some things and wishes he still had Krisi, and I'm not surprised... If I'd lost her I would regret it as well. She's incredible.

Here's pictures, though I know none of you will comment or even probably look. Heheh. XD

The Dragonforce Fans!
(Pog, Tom, Sian, Mouse, Me, Krisi, Sam and Nash)

Krisi and GINGER! Props to Ginger for driving all of us and not having one drink! Awesome Dude!

ME!!

Sian

Sian and Krisi

Me and Krisi (we're such cam whores!)

Krisi and Pog

Me, Krisi and Sam

Mouse

Krisi!!

Mouse and Krisi

Random Pictures of the Gang

Sam and Krisi

Sam! (his camera is teh pwnage!)

Sian, Pog and Krisi

Nash!

Awww, cut my finger in the mosh. XD

Krisi's Mum, Pog!

Sam, Mouse, Krisi

Krisi's Dad, Tom!

Crowd and Band Pics

The End

fez_reincarnate @ 2006-11-30T09:10:00

2006-11-30T09:10:50Z

'tis time for another college boredom update. Heheh.

Well not much really to report. Lots of assignments for college and I'm way behind on the workload. I'm only just able to hand assignments in for the final date. XD Lol. Oh well. As long as I don't end up failing, or else I am FUCKED and can't go to University.
But then again, I'd just get a full-time job again and get lots and lots of monehs. XD

It was mine and Krisi's one month on Wednesday. Our first month of the rest of our lives. :)

Ummm. Going to Dragonforce this saturday, with Firewind and All That Remains supporting. Shall be a very good, drunken time. Heheh. Meeting Krisi's Ex, Sam, for the first time. He seems like quite a nice lad, actually. XD Plus he's a gamer, so I just might get on with him very well. :)

Well, that's about it heheh, and my tutor's here so I should probably get off now anyways. Lovas!

fez_reincarnate @ 2006-11-27T17:57:00

2006-11-27T17:57:07Z

Sometimes I worry about myself. I worry about how I became when I was with Gina. She was a very jealous over-protective person, and it made me become the same. I know I am a very easily jealous person. And for that reason I am concerned about how easy it is for me to get jealous - I don't like getting jealous. It's not what I want to be. And I hope I can resist it for the future. For me and Krisi.

Gah.

For the record, I love Krisi Roberts. She's the most amazing girl in the entire world, I swear. :) I am very happy with her and can see this lasting. She isn't the kind of girl who will hurt me... :)